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Kimberly, "The Bombing Babe"

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[Jun. 16th, 2011|09:46 pm]
Kimberly, "The Bombing Babe"
Yes, I'm still alive...really need to start expressing myself here because I am going through a lot and as usual, God knows I cannot talk about it on FB, too many people I know read it. Funny, I remember before FB exploded everyone was on here, now most have deserted it for FB, but I won't because as I said, too much I want to talk about that I don't want certain people I know to read...things are worse than ever w/ my mom and I honestly don't know what's going to happen. I keep think about her being dead, seeing her body, getting that call...we're meeting w/ a counselor and trying to come up w/ a plan, but I honestly think it may be too late...and she has no cell phone right now and I sure as hell don't want to talk to Damon, I am just so worried all the time, and I know I cannot live like this much longer...this is a nightmare I NEVER could've imagined..feel like my life is one long bad dream lately, I just to wake up and have everything normal again, and there is absolutely nothing good in my life distract me. My job is a slight one, but its fairly boring and I need more than it pays if I am ever going to get out on my own. Friends, relationship, not inkling of most of either of them. I've determined I'm just too weird, too much of a freak. I don't have enough in common w/ anyone to have a real connection. One TS woman's husband said in a TS Society Youtube video, he walked into her house and saw Stars Wars videos and new she was cool and they had things in common..I doubt any guy is going to see my Melrose DVD's and think the same thing, but I am who I am, I'm into 90's primetime Soaps, not Science Fiction...I also know no one who shares my taste in music, not solely anyway...but again, I am who am, gotta take me or leave, unfortunately most choose leave..