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"Once Upon A Time I didn't give a damn.."

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Kimberly, "The Bombing Babe"
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Me Melrose Freak :P

"I love this store, they always give me a free slice of cheese, and I don't even like cheese"

"Chickens are just like you and me, except, well, they're chickens"

"My Chicken can lay an Egg..
Whats so impressive about that?
Well, Can You Lay an Egg?"

I like pleasure spiked with pain, and Melrose is my Aeroplane :P

I always say that Linkin Parks Meteora and Hybrid Theory desribe my life, so I am posting their lyrics as my biograhpy because this could've just as easily been written by me:

Linkin Park
Don't Stay

Sometimes i
need to remember just to breathe
sometimes i
need you to stay away from me
sometimes i'm
in disbelief i didn't know
somehow i
need you to go
sometimes i
feel like i trusted you too well
sometimes i
just feel like screaming at myself
sometimes i'm
in disbelief i didn't know
somehow i
need to be alone

don't stay
forget our memories
forget our possibilities
what you were changing me into
[just give me myself back and]
don't stay
forget our memories
forget our possibilities
take all your faithlessness with you
[just give me myself back and]
don't stay


i don't need you anymore
i don't want to be ignored
i don't need one more day
of you wasting me away

with no apologies


Somewhere I Belong

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Lying From You

When i pretend
everything is what i want it to be
i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
when i pretend
i can forget about the criminal i am
stealing second after second just cause i know i can / but
i can't pretend this is the way it will stay / i'm just
trying to bend the truth
i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be
so i'm
lying my way from you

[no / no turning back now]
i wanna be pushed aside
so let me go
[no / no turning back now]
let me take back my life
i'd rather be all alone
[no turning back now]
anywhere on my own
cause i can see
[no / no turning back now]
the very worst part of you
is me

i remember what they taught to me
remember condescending talk of who i ought to be
remember listening to all of that and this again
so i pretended up a person who was fitting in
and now you think this person really is me and i'm
[trying to bend the truth]
but the more i push
the more i'm pulling away
'cause i'm

lying my way from you

this isn't what i wanted to be
i never thought that what i said
would have you running from me
like this

the very worst part of you
the very worst part of you
is me

Hit The Floor

There are just too many
times that people
have have tried to look inside of me
wondering what i think of you
and i protect you out of courtesy
too many times that i've
held on when i needed to push away
afraid to say what was on my mind
afraid to say what i need to say
too many
things that you've said about me
when i'm not around
you think having the upper hand
means you've got to keep putting me down
but i've had too many stand-offs with you
it's about as much as i can stand
just wait until the upper hand
is mine
so many people like me
put so much trust in all your lies
so concerned with what you think
to just say what we feel inside
so many people like me
walk on eggshells all day long
all i know is that all i want
is to feel like i'm not stepped on
there are so many things you say
that make me feel like you've crossed the line
what goes up will surely fall
and i'm counting down the time
cause i've had so many stand-offs with you
it's about as much as i can stand
so i'm waiting until the upper hand
is mine

one minute you're on top
the next you're not
watch it drop
making your heart stop
just before you hit the floor
one minute you're on top
the next you're not
missed your shot
making your heart stop
you think you won

and then it's all gone

i know i'll never trust a single thing you say
you knew your lies would divide us
but you lied anyway
and all the lies have got you floating
up above us all
but what goes up has got to fall

Easier To Run

Its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone
something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show
they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so
there would never be a past

just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel so misplaced
is so much simpler than change

its easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
its so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

Faint

I am
little bit of loneliness
a little bit of disregard
a handful of complaints
but i can't help the fact
that everyone can see these scars
i am
what i want you to want
what i want you to feel
but it's like
no matter what i do
i can't convince you
to just believe this is real
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got
i am
a little bit insecure
a little unconfident
cause you don't understand
i do what i can
but sometimes i don't make sense
i am
what you never want to say
but i've never had a doubt
it's like no matter what i do
i can't convince you
for once just to hear me out
so i let go
watching you
turn your back like you always do
face away and pretend that i'm not
but i'll be here
cause you're all i got

i can't feel
the way i did before
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored
time won't heal
this damage anymore
don't turn your back on me
i won't be ignored


no
hear me out now
you're gonna listen to me
like it or not
right now

Figure.09

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
and the pain attached to them
sometimes i wonder why this is happening
its like nothing i can do will distract me when
i think of how i shot myself in the back again
cause from the infinite words i could say / i
put all the pain you gave to me on display / but didn't
realize / instead of setting it free / i
took what i hated and made it a part of me
[it never goes away]

hearing your name / the memories come back again
i remember when it started happening
i'd see you in every thought i had and then
the thoughts slowly found words attached to them
and i knew as they escaped away i was
committing myself to them / and every day i
regret saying those things / cause now i see / that i
took what i hated and made it a part of me

[it never goes away]

and now
you've become a part of me
you'll always be right here
you've become a part of me
you'll always be my fear
i can't separate myself from what i've done
i've given up a part of me
i've let myself become you

get away from me
gimme my space back / you gotta just go
everything comes down to memories of you
i've kept it in but now i'm letting you know
i've let you go
get away from me

i've let myself become you
i've let myself become lost inside these
thoughts of you
giving up a part of me
i've let myself become you


Breaking The Habit

Memories consume
like opening the wound
i'm picking me apart again
you all assume
i'm safe here in my room
[unless i try to start again]
i don't want to be the one
the battles always choose
cause inside i realize
that i'm the one confused

i don't know what's worth fighting for
or why i have to scream
i don't know why i instigate
and say what i don't mean
i don't know how i got this way
i know it's not alright
so i'm
breaking the habit
tonight

clutching my cure
i tightly lock the door
i try to catch my breath again
i hurt much more
than anytime before
i had no options left again

i'll paint it on the walls
cause i'm the one at fault
i'll never fight again
and this is how it ends

i don't know what's worth fighting for
or why i have to scream
but now i have some clarity
to show you what i mean
i don't know how i got this way
i'll never be alright
so i'm
breaking the habit
breaking the habit
tonight


From The Inside

I don't know who to trust
no surprise
everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts sift through dust
and the lies
trying not to break
but i'm so tired of this deceit
every time i try to make myself
get back up on my feet
all i ever think about is this
all the tiring time between
and how
trying to put my trust in you
just takes so much out of me

i take everything from the inside
and throw it all away
cause i swear / for the last time
i won't trust myself with you

tension is building inside
steadily
everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts forcing their way
out of me

i won't trust myself with you
i won't waste myself on you
waste myself on you
you

Nobody’s Listening

Peep the style and the kids checking for it
the number one question is how could you ignore it
we drop right back in the cut
over basement tracks
with raps that got you backing this up like
[rewind that]
we're just rolling with the rhythm
rise from the ashes of stylistic division
with these non-stop lyrics of life living
not to be forgotten
but still unforgiven
but in the meantime there are those who wanna
talk this and that / so i suppose
that it gets to a that point feelings gotta get hurt
and get dirty with the people spreading the dirt
[it goes]
try to give you warning
but everyone ignores me
[told you everything loud and clear]
but nobody's listening
call to you so clearly
but you don't want to hear me
[told you everything loud and clear]
but nobody's listening

i got a
heart full of pain / head full of stress
handful of anger / held in my chest
and everything left is a waste of time
i hate my rhymes
[but hate everyone else's more]
i'm riding on the back of this pressure
guessing that it's better
that i can't keep myself together
because all of this sex
gave me something to write on
the pain gave me something i could set my sights on
you never forget the blood sweat and tears
the uphill struggle over years
the fear and trash talking
and the people it was to
and the people that started it
just like you

i got a
heart full of pain / head full of stress
handful of anger / held in my chest
uphill struggle / blood sweat and tears
nothing to gain / everything to fear

[coming at you]

Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
i don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you

i've
become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste is more than i can take

but i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you

Papercut

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed / but
I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
[And watches everything]
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me / right underneath my skin

It's like I'm, paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a, whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I, can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
[And watches everything]
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too / right inside your skin

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

One Step Closer

I cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before...

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to.... break!

Shut up when i'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up when i'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up

I’m about to break!

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to.... break!

With You

I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static / and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I’m pretending to be where I’m not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I’m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react
Even though you’re so close to me
You’re still so distant / And I can’t bring you back
It’s true / the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you’re not with me
I’m with you
You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside
You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes
I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor / the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isn’t real
Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I’m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react
Even though you’re close to me
You’re still so distant / And I can’t bring you back
no
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you

Points Of Authority

Forfeit the game / Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame / Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face / You can't run the race
The pace is too fast / You just can't last

You love the way I look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if I give in
My life
My pride is broken

You love the things I say I'll do-
The way I'll hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in / my life
My pride is broken

Chorus:
You like to think you're never wrong
You want to act like you're someone
You want someone to hurt like you
You want to share what you've been through
(You live what you learn)

Runaway

Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

I'm gonna run away and never say goodbye
(Gonna run away, gonna run away)
I'm gonna run away and never wonder why
(Gonna run away, gonna run away)
I'm gonna run away and open my mind
(Gonna run away, gonna run away)


I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind
I wanna run away
And open up my mind

By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I / sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I / try to catch them red - handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on / when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily façade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

In The End

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

A Place For My Head

I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give / life to the moon to assuming
The moon's going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me / You do
Favors and then rapidly / You just
Turn around and start asking me / about
Things you want back from me
I'm sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While I find a place to rest

I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don't understand
[You'll see it's not meant to be]
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

Maybe someday I'll be just like you / and
Step on people like you do and / Run
Away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
Used to be generous / but you should've known / That you'd
Wear out your welcome / now you see
How quiet it is / all alone / I'm so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While / I find a place to rest / I'm so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While / I find a place to rest

You try to take the best of me
Go away

Forgotten

From the top to the bottom
Bottom to top I stop
At the core I've forgotten
In the middle of my thoughts
Taken far from my safety
The picture is there
The memory won't escape me
But why should I care

There's a place so dark you can't see the end
[Skies cock back] and shock that which can't defend
The rain then sends dripping / an acidic question
Forcefully, the power of suggestion
Then with the eyes tightly shut / looking thought the rust and rot
And dust / a spot of light floods the floor
And pours over the rusted world of pretend
The eyes ease open and its dark again

In the memory you'll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up

Moving all around / screaming of the ups and downs
Pollution manifested in perpetual sound
The wheels go round and the sunset creeps past the
Street lamps, chain-link and concrete
A little piece of paper with a picture drawn floats
On down the street till the wind is gone
The memory now is like the picture was then
When the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again

Now you got me caught in the act
You bring the thought back
I'm telling you that
I see it right through you

I've lied / to you
The same way that I always do
This is / the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

Pre-chorus:
[Everything falls apart / even the people who never frown / eventually break
down]
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
[Everything has to end / you'll soon find we're out of time / to watch it
all unwind]
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried /like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is / the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you
This is my December, This is my time of the year
This is my December, This is all so clear

Just wish that I didn’t feel like there was something I missed
Give it all away
Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed
Give it all away

This is my December, This is my snow covered home
This is my December, This is me alone

And I (Just wish that I didn’t feel like there was something I missed)
And I (Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that)
And I (Just wish that I didn’t feel like there was something I missed)
And I (Take back all the things that I said to you)

And I, give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December, These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending, this is all I need

And I (Just wish that I didn’t feel like there was something I missed)
And I (Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that)
And I (Just wish that I didn’t feel like there was something I missed)
And I (Take back all the things that I said to you)

And I, give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

This is my December, This is my time of the year
This is my December, This is all so clear

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to

Enth E Nd

Hey yo when this first started off it was just Linkin Park...
Then in the middle came Motion Man...
And at the end of it all it was Kutmasta Kut wit a remix [echo]

One thing i don't know why
it doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind I designed this rhyme when I was obsessed with time
all i know, time was just slipping way
and i watched it count down till the end of the day
watched it watch me and the words that i say
the echo of the clock rhythm in my veins
i know that i didn't look out below
and i watched the time go right out the window
trying to grab hold, trying not to watch
i wasted it all on the hands of the clock
but in the end no matter what i pretend
the journey is more important than the end or the start
and what it meant to me will eventually be
a memory of a time when i tried so hard

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

Yo one thing, one thing i don't know why
it doesn't even matter how hard you try
keep that in mind i designed this rhyme to explain in due time
all i know, time to so-socialize like the host of the party
all for shake and made eye contact
party control showing all that
northeast, southwest coast
stand out the window, no opportunity to mingle
i tried to show her, if you could just sense a middle disorder
i brought you back of the thing
like the imaginary man of your dreams
well, you would always seem to make it worth it
a pig skin i never nerfed it
you felt lovin, i never applied a room
without bringing the plan
by any means and means of leaving you teens,
of all those teenage scenes, i tried so hard

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

Linkin park, remix, Mo Mo Mo Motion Man
linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kutmasta Kut Kutmasta Kurt
linkin park, remix, Mo Mo Motion Man
linkin park, in the end, Kutmasta Kurt

One thing i don't know how
it doesn't even matter when you look at it now
because when i designed this rhyme i was scared of it all
scared to fall, i hadn't even tried to crawl
and i was forced to run, with you mocking me
stopping me, back stabbing me constantly
remembering all those times you fought with me
watch the clock now chop full of hypocrisy
and now your mouth wishes it could inhale
every single little thing you said and make it expel
every single word you sputter just to get your piece, but it really doesn't matter to me
because from the start to the end no matter what i pretend
the journey is more important than the end or the start
and what it meant to me will eventually be
a memory of the time when i tried so hard

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesnt even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesnt even matter..
In the end






























I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I
Turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on / then they'll
Take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
[by myself]

How do you think / I've lost so much
I'm so afraid / I'm out of touch
How do you expect / I will know what to do
When all I know / Is what you tell me to

Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside











































































1997, 311, 4616, 90's music, 90's nostalgia, adoption, alison parker, alternative music, american idol, amusement, annoying people, anthony kiedis, anti-according to jim, anti-bitches, anti-cheating, anti-jim belushi, anti-marriage, anti-oprah, anti-pregnant women, anti-relationships, anti-sex, anti-skinny ppl, anti-sluts, anti-whores, anti-women, anti-women's rights, audioslave, badmitton, baltimore, being lazy, beyonce, bip bop, blackmail, blowing, boys, burger king, candy corns, cheeseburgers, chocolate milk, chris cornell, courtney thorne-smith, cruising, crunchwrap supremes, cumshots, d&d advertising, daphne zuniga, daughtry, desperate housewives, dogornio three-meat pizza's, e-mail, eating, everclear, football, french fries, fried shrimp, gambling, going out to eat, grant show, guys, halloween, hamburgers, hanson, heart, helge:p, hfs, hfs 90's nooner, hilda morris, hot chocolate, howard stern, i love the 90's, icy delights, idiots, intersex, jake hanson, jo reynolds, junk-food, kathy bates, kimberly shaw, laura leighton, linkin park, listening to the radio, livejournal, lying, male porn models, manipulation, marcia cross, matchbox 20, mcdonalds, mcdonalds double cheeseburgers, melrose place, melrose place fans, melrose rpg's, melrose websites, men, michael mancini, milk chocolate, mini-golf, misery, misto shakes, mr. bean, nickelback, norway, not having common sense, not having sex, offspring, orgies, popcorn, pro-life, pro-stupidity, procrastination, puddle of mud, red hot chili peppers, reese's peanut butter cups, rita's italian ice, rowan atkinson, saliva, sansa player, saturday night live, shooters, sierra mist, silverchair, simple plan, smile empty soul, soda, soundgarden, spaghetti with extra sauce, star port, stone sour, sublime, sydney andrews, taco bell, the 90's, the baltimore blast, the baltimore orioles, the baltimore ravens, the bloodhound gang, the pretty lady, the treadmill, thomas calabro, three days grace, turner syndrome, tv trannies, virgins, watching porn, whitney houston, wierd al, wii, wii fit, wilshire memorial, zac hanson

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